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I moved my ass…..

http://izzy.mine.nu/

I see you in there =)

I kind miss my gallery, plying around whit pictures and photo was a big hobby of mine and I missed it so now am back at wordpress on my own server

http://izzy.mine.nu/sparks/

/izzy

Trauma leaves always a scar one you...
Trauma fallows you home from work, seek you up in your dreams but somehow you keep going. Somehow it dose make you who you are, sheep you, give you your colors, that deep purple/ blue… dark red… green edges

And maybe is just what you need… to be shaking up to keep you going…
to do the best of what you get in this life.

“God give you only what he knows you can handle” she said once, long time ago

i am what i am ....

/izzy

Min chef tycker att jag är ”NEGATIV” OCH ATT DET HAR TENDENS ATT SPRIDA SIG... han har rak fram kalat mig mig ”manipulativ” och sagt att jag har en ond tvillig ... synd att han inta kan tänka till lite och inse... att om mina åskiter till vad som inte fungerar på min arbets plats sprider sig tyder det på att folk lyssnar och att jag lyssnar på vad som sägs, ta åt mig och försöker ändra på ting.

Synd att han inte inser värdet i mitt engagemang och utnytjar den som en smart chef hade gjort.

För om jag nu har så mycket ”makt” och ”inflytande” bland mina arbets kolleger borde det inte utnytjas till att samarbeta och skapa positivitet istället... kan man ju tycka.

Jag påstår inte att jag är värdens smartaste person men jag förneckar inte heller att jag kan en del som andra inte kan och är väldigt medveten om både mina skyldigheter och RÄTTIGHETER och att IGNORANS är något av det allra värsta jag vet.

Det är mycket som är FEL på min arabtes plats...(på vems är det inte det då ?)

Man väljer bland annat att lägga fokus på helt fel saker... man väljer bort arbetskolleger som är efektiva och omtyckta men inte så ”bekväma” att göra med för ledningen.

Ofta få jag en känsla, att de som driver verksamheten framåt och anstränger sig är ofta de som lägger hela sitt hjärta i det de gör men att det är också de som kan tillräckligt mycket för kräva sina rättigheter och när de inte är så bekväma och ”trevliga” länge ,straffas de.

Helst av allt, ska jag slava ihjäl sig, aldrigt kräva något, aldrigt göra fel, hålla munen stängd, vara tacksam för att man har ett jobb och alltid ställa upp, aldrig vara sjuk, löne förhandla inte och acepptera varje förendring utan att ifrågesätta den.

Men i slutändan handlar det om... ja människor...

I slutet av varje arbets pass... när jag vet att jag gjort mitt bästa (även om det kanske intevarit mitt bästa mest produktiva dag) när jag cyklar hem genom stan med rent samvete och ro i själen och lägger mig i min säng för nattens ro stund och JAG ingen annan bara jag , vet att jag har gjort vad jag kunnat... då få man vara nöjd med sina insattser.

Sen har jag faktiskt riktigt rara arbets kollegor.. . massor av de... inte alltid uppskatade och ganska ofta missuppfatade men roliga och duktiga på sitt jobb.

Få vi är så uppe i vårat arbete att vi sällan allt för sällan hinner berömma varandra och berätta hur mycket vi uppskatar allt vi gör...

 men i slutändan...

/izzy

Disconnected from physical world of humanity i stand whit my arms hanging and my head turn down…

Toss hair, open mouth, naked breasts…so vulnerable, along… waiting

Spring rain makes love to my skin, sun, wind, soiled grown, but not human hands…

I look up and pray to skys, listening to birds building live, I see trees spreading shadows one my shoulders.

I feel how het in my womb spread itself to rest of me; seek shelter in cherry trees shadows, salvation nowhere to found.

I scream your name when fury of loaning after you seeks stars in dawn.  

Women… your women… going half crazy in the spring rain waiting for you to take away that fairer before it destroy her soul, once for all…

For you to lend some silver peace just before you rock me to sleep, whispering words lovers do.

Close eyes, open mouth, wide open heart…counting days until

/izzy

Izzy in May...

Still waiting...
still very much in love…

Wearing that stupid smile you put one me almost year ago ….

Feeling like just everything is possible, thanks to you baby…

/izzy

this one made me laugh for days =)
and sweat through their tongue
The big ones are stupid Dogs aren’t clever

Dogs aren’t clever
they eat their own dung
they
whine like babies
and sweat through their tongue
The big ones are stupid
the small are high strung
but cats are cunts

You know..

Dogs are filthy
they get ticks and fleas
they
drag their asses
and give Lyme disease
you have to train them,
pick up their crap
on your knees
but cats are cunts

1, 2, 3..

cats are cunts
cunts are cats
cats are cunts
cunts are cats
it’s easy to learn
so let’s all say that

cats are cunts
cunts are cats
cats are cunts
cunts are cats
so spread the word
through your own habitat

You know..

Dogs get rabies
they drool and they fart
they drink from toilets,
they’re not very smart
they get worms
but their better than their counterpart
cause cats are cunts

why do you think they call it pussy?

/izzy

Ability may take you to the top, but it takes character to stay there.

Act as if it were impossible to fail and it will be.

Actions speak louder than coaches. (Speedo ad)

After you have done your best-your best may not be good enough.

A little fish in a big pond can get to be a big fish in that pond, but a big fish in a little pond cannot get any better off.

Always remember, whatever the goal--keep your eye on it.

Attitudes are contagious. Are yours worth catching?

A winner makes committments to a goal, a loser makes promises.

A team which has become a winner has done so by certain individual setting and reaching goals for themselves.

Attitudes are nothing more than habits of thought...and habits can be acquired.

Bad times have a value, these are the times a good learner would not miss.

Be consistently persistent. (Dick Hannula)

Be satisfied with nothing but your best.

Breastroke is an athletic event, butterfly is a political statement. (Paul Tsongas 3/20/92)

Compete to compete.

Common sense is very uncommon. (Horace Greely.)

Defeat should never be a source of disappointment, but rather a fresh stimulus.

Design a workout that even a fool can use and only a fool will use it.

Desire + dedication + direction = Determined Destiny.

Doing a thing nearly right and doing it exactly right is usually the difference between success and failure.

Do not be afraid of an honest effort and honest work; do not be aftaid of the truth. The surest way to succeed is to not fail.

Do not dwell on your losses, but concntrate upon the part of your performance that limited your excellence.

Don't count the days, make the days count.

Don't try to make sense out of nonsense.

Don't let anyone out-train you.

Education is what you get from reading the fine print.

Experience is what you get from not reading it.

Everyone's a potential winner. Some people are disguised as losers though--Don't let their appearance fool you.

Faith can move mountains, doubt can create them.

Focus on your strong points when you visualize your race.

Failure is often that early morning hour of darkness that precedes the dawning of the day of success.

Go hard or go home. (Speedo Ad)

Hard things are put in our way, not to stop us, but to call out our courage and strength.

He who does not hope to win has already lost.

Ideas never work unless you do.

If you are good, be better.

If you do not consciously form good habits, you will unconsciously form bad ones.

If you give everything your best shot, you will come out on top no matter what the score.

If you don't take the time to do it right - will you have the time to do it over?

If you love life then do not waste time for that is what life is made of. (Ben Franklin)

If the going seems easy, check to see if you are going downhill.

Ink it, don't just think it.

 t's not how far you swim in practice; and its' not how fast you swim in practice--it's how far you swim fast in practice.

It's not the best person that wins, it's the best trained person.

It's better to have swum and lost than to never have swum at all. [or to have played basketball -ge]

It doesn't take great men to do great things, it takes concentrated men. (No chauvinism intended.)

It's what you have left after you give 100%.

Leadership by example is the most difficult, but also the most beneficial.

LEARN TO LOVE PAIN

Losers let it happen, winners make it happen.

Life's greatest adventure is in doing one's very best.

Luck is when preparation meets opportunity.

Never sacrifice a principle for a temporary gain.

Nothing can stop the man with the right mental attitude from achieving his goal, nothing on earth can help the man with the wrong attitude. (Thomas Jefferson.)

Obstacles are what you see when you take your eyes off the goal.

Only those risking to go far will ever know how far they can go.

Only a mediocre person is always at his best.

Practice is 90% physical-10% mental. Championship meets are 10% physical-90% mental.

Pride, intense pride, that's what it all comes down to.

Practice does not make perfect, perfect practice makes perfect.

People are generally better persuaded by the reasons which they themselves discovered than by those which have come from others.

People who feel good about themselves produce good results.

Success does not rest. (Original.)

Speed is the by-product of busting your ass.

Swim each practice as if it was the most important practice of the year.

Swimming is a sport, everything else is just a game.

Swimmers who are willing to work out close to racing speed will ultimately swim faster when it counts.

Take the best team and the worst team. Line them up and you would find very little physical difference. You would find an emotional difference. The winning team has a dedication--they won't accept defeat.

Take all defeats as temporary setbacks.

The road to success is always under construction.

The minute you quit is the moment you fail.

There is always room at the top.

The swimmer who says, "It can't be done" is passed by the swimmer who is doing it.

The will to win is not nearly so important as the will to prepare to win.

The dictionary is the only place where success comes before work.

The future belongs to those who prepare for it.

The height of your success is determined by the depth of your belief.

The harder your work, the luckier you get.

The hardest thing about climbing the ladder of success is getting through the crowd at the bottom.

The only way to discover the limits of the possible is to go beyond into the impossible.

The real test in golf, as in life, is not keeping out of the rough, but getting out once you are in.

The swimmer that makes the fewest mistakes wins.

Trust your hopes, not your fears.

The key to better swimming, is swimming better.

There are going to be times when everything succeeds, but don't worry, it will pass.

There is a big difference between wanting to and willing to.

There is no substitute for hard work and effort beyond the call of mere duty. That is what strengthens the soul and one's character.

The majority of failures in life are simply the victims of their mental defeats.

That you may fail, is not sufficient reason for not trying.

Tough times never last, but tough people do.

We accomplish in proportion to what we attempt.

We are successful precisely because we formed the habit of doing things that failures do not like to do.

What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us.

When you are behind, don't give up; when you are ahead, don't let up.

Whether you think you can or can't, your're right.

Why strive for mediocrity?

Winning isn't everything, but trying to is.

Winners are workers.

Winners make goals, losers make excuses.

A winner solves his problems, but a loser is defeated by his.

Winning can be defined as the science of being totally prepared. I define prepartation in three words: leave nothing undone.

Winning is seeing improvement in yourself.

Work hard -- rest hard.

Winning is not a sometime thing; it's an all the time thing.

You don't win once in a while, you don't do things right once in a while, you do them right all the time. Winning is a habit. Unfortunately, so is losing.

Winners make it happen -- losers let it happen.

Win or lose, playing at all is winning.

You can motivate by fear and reward, but these are temporary. The only lasting thing is self-motivation.

Yesterday is a canceled check; tomorrow is a promissory note; today is the only cash you have. Spend it wisely.

You are never given a wish without also being given the power to make it come true. You may have to work for it however.

You can always better your best.

You can't do anything by doing nothing.

You create your own luck.

You get good at what you practice.

You need to compete for something greater than the experience of simply winning.

Your toughest opponent is in the mirror. 

Liums employees strands for this.

/By Richard Lium 

/izzy

          An angel flu right thought the room, just a bow my head

                        God! how I miss you in my bed.

Simply enjoying life ...
 i learn from Ella , she knows the simple joys ...like sitting among the flowers just listening to the birds… or lying in the shadows looking at the bumble- bees when she doesn’t chase them.

My dog is the best Zen teacher ever I tell you =) and am in the zone, feeling her harmony, zipping my coffee enjoying looking at her =)

/izzy

Our naked frustration ... whit time... whit technology ... white circumstances and sometime whit each other …it is what makes us… all those tests we put thought are sometimes absurd in many ways, still it was and is our choice…  to stay… to put up whit it, to bear, to weather  it out.

So many obstacles… and time to time am finding myself , holding my head in my hands in the ditch praying for strange to bear the paranoia and shake the fears of…

“Broken heart” is what I say… you see it in different way… like a heart dies a little… for a little while and then in time you get over it, move one, keep living …

Sometimes am wondering if you really loved anybody whit whole your being, if you really know how love like that absorb you, swallow your soul and how broken it makes you feel when it spits you out

Broken heart is what I had, broken until I fade away…

You say “in case… you will survive baby”

Am thinking “in that case… you never will know, will you “

I keep listing to your sweet voice… I feel how it softens my bones… how it rocks my in your rhythm almost if you have your arms around my  

I love you … Alex !

/izzy

It started whit night before... just after midnight… white… your voice… to hear that you love me…
to let your voice calm my stormy soul, let you chase worries away …

You feel so natural… so strong and safe…

Mist in early hour… crispy ear around my tired, heavy, sleepy head… dream junkie as I am …

 Narcissuses scent one the way to work, the vibrating sweet fragrance though city…

Light blue sky’s , blurred pink sun…

Ducks in the park… bran new furry duck babies… soft yellow and sooo cute

Bumble-bees buzzing whit heavy behinds… lazy in the morning sun  

Cherry trees… in full bloom… white, red and pink… GOD !… my cherry trees… already in bloom… my heart is signing…my soul is longing and my body is one fire

Am sooo in LOVE….

I just couldn’t stop smiling the whole way to work… riding my bike, yawning, rubbing my eyes, feeling silly and happy and so blessed…

/izzy   

What can i say... I miss you!!!.....

/izzy

8 weeks and 4 days ....

/izzy