gubbfan gonna be a dad

i am gonna be 53 i år

fick ett barn i förrgår

gift om mig för ca 2 år sen...flyttade mig själv and my store to stockholm

bascially i will make this short

it is never too late mina vänner!!

35 år med shrinks, anti depps and alot of ångest

now a new wife, new stad, new baby

ain't life amazing!!!

later on när allt har sjunkit på plats ska jag skriva om pain and giving birth and being a gubbfan and a new father....

later on

right now i just wanna see this in print

welcome to the world my daughter

our daughter

welcome to the world

adina leonora tova caracciolo farber

this world just got more beautiful than it ever was

baba sover nu

var en lång natt och dag. id hal 3 tiden började the contractions komma bout every 6 minutes. since we live 30 minuter från sjukhuset and since baba is like me....she just don't like pain.,....we decided it best to call the sjukhus and get moving

once there they looked at her and said..yup, looks like the baby is on her way

yee ha

few hours later they looked again

oops...looks like things have ändrat sig. baby is utan tivel NOT coming today so you can go home

no baby...no morfin. at this point i am not sure which disappointment was större

just to wait

while baba sleeps i am making my almost famous jewish porkchops ala king solomon. they are so damn good that god at one point was thinking of chaning the koscher regler. good and tasty and easy...and CHEAP.  what more can one ask?

take some kotletter...dash on a bissel ketchup and a bissle farin

lägg en skiva lök and a skiva apelsin ovanpå.

cut another apelsin in half and squeeze the juice over

cover and put in ugn for about an hour. take off the cover and keep in another 30 minuter

i usually have rivna morroter and potatis till

and right now i listen to golden apples of the sun. we have taken that as one of our having a baby cds to listen to while baba is laboring.

golden apples of the sun is a compilation...THE compilation of freak folk music. devendra banhart was asking to put together a cd of his favo freak folk music and this is the fruit of his labor.

pretty much every damn song is a classic.....a perfect cd to have terrible contractions to

just ask my baba

 

 

things getting closer

contractions are now about 10 minutes apart and i hope my wrist holds out

every contraction baba squeezes my wrist really hard....my sacrifice to this

when the kid gets older...baba will tell of 9 long hard months of pregnancy and labor

i will say...poor me, my wrist was sore

oh the trials and tribulations of manhood

i have this dream idea that i know sounds totally flummig and childish now...and i am sure hundreds of years from now will be en del av our vardag

i write it here and now so i have bevis

i want to invent a "feeling suit".

it would be sort of like a skinlike  kostym. man sätter på den...it would be like a new outer layer of hud

man känner och man tänker...you feel physical feelings and you think your innermost thoughts

alla dina tankar and känslor kommer upp och lägger sig på huden

you then take the hud off..and the other person puts it on. they then can feel exactly how you feel...and think your exact thoughts

love, pain, hot, cold, olika smaker, fear, glädje....all of these...they could become concrete words

sometimes i think i have the thoughts of a 5 year old

but i wanna be able to feel what my baba is feeling now

lately at work i found a cd that has played nonstop..nipper's greatest hits

don't know why..but i am in total love with musik från 20talet. and this cd is one of the best i have found

if you come to the store and i am playing it..don't ask to buy it...i won't sell my copy.

jag kan beställa om du vill

tonight if there is no baby...i think i  will make spinach pasta

man kokar upp ett packet spenat...lägger i lite vitlök and some creme fraiche eller yogurt eller something liknande

have with pasta

perfekt mat att laga om  man ska offra sin hand till sin poor contracting fru

 

 

nu är det 2 dagar övertid

2 VERY long dagar må du tro!

when baba has decided something...since she is a very comitted athiest...even gud får inte komma och sabba det hon har bestämt

she decided the baby was coming on time...and i kind of höll med

oops

2 days later..no adina

baba..my wonderful cute sweet charming italian mamababa

she is dangerous

take pms, menstrual pain, add some impatience, tiredness and more pain

she has every right to be grumpy...and i lovar dig..i am doing all jag kan för att hjälpa till

last night i even made my super hallonkyckling and since baba is now doing something that i don't dare watch...i have a second to write it down...if you dare try it

take some kycklingbröst file and steka de

make some pasta

blanda en buk hallonsylt med some smör och lite citronsaft...heat it up

make some sparris

pasta then kyckling then sparris then sås

trust me

and now i go risk my life and ask how she is feeling

men gud vad jag är galen in this woman!

this fucking kid is starting to piss me off already
i had plans for this week...back från sjukhuset...she stays put for another 1-13 days...not even born and the litttle bitch is already starting to decide...i am taking notes kid...there will be payback!!!
i am planning on early senility...oops..i pooed on your new floor!!

who the hell stole my feet?

is this a dog or a glass of water?

your life is gonna be wonderful

please please come out and let it start!!!

baba  has a feeling the baby will be arriving today or tmaro
wow
may i say wow again?
if..and i do hope i continue, if i do continue with this blogg..get ready for alot of gubbgrubbles. tro mig, this deal of becoming a father igen at 52. it really can send you flying with grubbles. mostly good ones, but at 52 come alot of aches and pains from the 52 years one has lived. both mental and physical a ches and pains. now i am not gonna have time to feel them. now i actually...at 52.. gotta .become a responsible parent once again.
stay tuned
this baby is being born to a mother who sings and loves opera and who snores in rhythm....and a father who only listens to the weirdest of the weird...and best of the weird.
i suggest you all to go check out naing-naing. i am playing him now here in the store.
he is unique and my baby gonna hear him at most 3 hours after being born.
i made soup for baba last night
lebanese soup.
easy as hell and mighty good
cut up 3 potatis and 3 onions into small pieces...throw in 4 chopped garlic cloves along with 3 dl röda linser 2 grönsaksbuljong thingees...tärningar...that's the word! and 1,5 liters of vatten
let it cook a while
when all soft..thrown in the saft of a lemon and some spiskummin and some cayannepepar...mix it all up
yummy
sorta weird..one of the most important days since i have been alive happening today
wow obama
hope my baby gets born today

baba studied to be an operasångerska för länge sen

hennes röst är verkligen something to see....god would even i love to see her röst!

to hear it is even more amazing må du tro!

hon sjunger inte mycket nuförtiden...just nu sjunger hon mest abba låtar tillsammans med sin wing cd faktiskt

inatt gjörde hon something i think is pretty damn original

she snored musik!!

really!!

hon snarkade sånger....i am honest...jag har ingen aning vad det var för sånger...men it was real snoremusik

tonight i go to sleep with a recorder

the baby is expected any second now...we sort of live in a twilight zone nu. hard to plan anything. feels as if we are booked on a plane that has a departure time of ?? and destination is  ???. 

it's all gonna change in a matter of hours...wow

hey...if you are in a hurry and need some amazing food...my in a hurry amazing food recipe is:

put some good lax in the oven

peel and cook some potatis....some sparris is cool with too

make a sauce of ...creme fraiche or something creme fraichy..yougurt, fil whatever...mix that with.....hjörtron sylt..amounts are up to the cook

that's it....use the sauce with the lax and potatis and sparris. kind of exotic and you have an efterrätt with the meal as the sauce is a perfect dessert

i am gonna tryo to excersize now...when one is over 50 and gonna be a new father...i think it might be good to be as in shape as possible

but i would rather have a donut

 

klockan är nästan 4

baba fick lite värk för några timmar sen...so that means i got some work to do

my baby cannot be born without a "welcome to life" special made cd

so i am awake running around the lägenhet looking all over for cds

i might redo this....but for now the welcome to life cd will include:

a towering cloud in the spring by three berry ice cream....i really cannot imagine a nicer way to begin this journey she is about to start

next kommer little weeper by larkin grimm....if my baby weeps as beautifully as larkin grimm...then my guess is that her laugh will conquer worlds

i'm yours you're mine by betty carter...soothing...plain and simple soothing...and the title is for real

nothing brings me down by emiliana torrini are some nice impossible words to live by

l'amour by arianna savall....besides putting love into music...my dear child..this was the song your mother and i were married to

a tune for jack by lemon jelly...i will always be your father...if you want to know who i am....this song describes me better than any words

what's happnin jimi by shawn phillips...i hope your life is as beautiful as shawn phillips voice in this song

last sweet moments by tim hardin...just because he sang this song to his wife and child

lasa girls by zamling shide...this world can be kind of earthy/spacey....just enjoy

a grain of sand by the sons of silence...i hope you will learn to grooove here in this life...hopefully this song will help

keep your heart right by terry callier...i just found this song right now...we will both remember the title i hope

look the sky by vinicius cantuaria...once again..the title will hopefully guide you and the music will help you float

enjoy the world my soon to be born daughter...the sights, sounds, smells, feelings,

the music

it's all amazing

yesterday i got a package to the store

3 nya wing cds!!! wing sings abba, beatles and elvis

kolla själv...this woman needs to get känd

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u9ZdTnJ9X9Y

baba wants to play wing music at bb när the baby gets born

jag är väldigt rädd for how this baby is gonna be

name and mat för ikväll seem both klara

namn is gonna be....adina leonora tova caracciolo farber

say that after 3 drinks!

mat blir some good biff med en salsa of mango, wasabi, lime and koriander..amazing stuff!

a special babasallad goes well with....babasallad is secret

 

been too much babygrubbel lately
been working on a cookbook for a few years
this is the first recept
i was värd for jonas gardell way back when, när jag jobbade som bibliotekarie i varberg and he was in town for a show
i made him some food
this is the food

PERSIKOKYCKLING SOM JONAS GARDELL TYCKTE OM A LA NITANALDI

Jag lovar dig... den här rätten smakar helt sagolikt. Om inte du tycker det...just bring it over to me and I will eat it up for you. What other kokbok kan bjuda på ett sånt erbjudande?

Jag kan berätta att Jonas Gardell var hos oss för länge sedan and he ate three portions. Mina stackars barn fick bara titta medan GrisJonas åt upp all deras mat.

Here goes:

6-800 gram kycklingbröstfilé

50-75 gram smör

lite salt och peppar

1 stor och 1 liten burk persikor

1/2 dl worcestershiresås

1 tsk kanel eller mer beroende på om du tycker lika mycket om kanel som jag gör

 

Ta och stek upp några bitar kycklingfilébröst... . tina upp dem först och skär dem i lite större bitar. Jag är inte mycket för mycket smör.. men mycket smör (actually sen jag skrev this recept i have discoveredd olivolja and i can say olivolja is much much better!!) och peppar är rätt så gott här. Vi kan säga sådär 6-800 gram kyckling allt som allt... och kanske 50-75 gram smör. Sen när du har stekt kycklingen så att den vet att den inte kommer att leva igen... kan du hälla i en stor och en liten burk persikor med juice. Helst öppnade burkar... om inte du behöver mycket järn i dit liv förstås. Skiva periskorna innan du lägger i dem. Häll i 1/2dl worcestershire sås... försök stava det utan att titta... 1 tsk kanel men jag älskar kanel så jag brukar ta mer... och lite salt. Låt det puttra i 15 minuter... och ät med ris eller pasta eller en god vän... the choice is yours

barbara comes from rome and has lived here for 4 years now
jag kommer från detroit and have lived here long enough to know exactly hur mycket lagom betyder
jag är inte så värst troende...actually not troende at all..men i am without a doubt a cultural jew....whatever the hell that betyder
barbara speaks italien and her english is amazing..her swedish is pretty much non existant
i speak american...my svenska is much better än du skulle kunna tro...15 år som bibliotekarie i varberg sorta makes it that way
i speak not a word of italienska
barbara will speak only italian to the baby...i will only speak english....the rest of you....you people may speak swedish if you wish.
we will celebrate jewish, italian, american and swedish holidays
i just wonder
what language will her shrink speak?

barbara and i are having a fight
hon är skitsur på mig för att jag blev arg på ngt igår
i wasn't so mad at her as i was just angry...men eftersom hon var nära till hands...and she was a part of the reason i was angry...so tog hon all min vrede på sig
and her way of taking it
was to get angry at me for getting angry
we haven't spoken a word today
no emails no sms no telephone calls
actually..kind of relaxing in it's own way
feels sort of like a boxing match and right now we get to go to our corners for a breath and a sip of water
she can say what she wants....and i will say what i want
italian people really do live out their feelings in a VERY non swedish way
italian woman who are going to have a baby any second...they live out their feelings...and 32 other peoples feelings at the same time
trust me....hormones and italians just do not make for quiet peaceful times
and if barbara reads this
i am dead

i once had a flickvän with the worlds best filosofi

her answer to allting var...tänk på de svältande barnen i etiopien!

spelade ingen roll vad det handlade om...the answer was always the same

tänk på de svältande barnen i etiopien

 

gud vad jag hatade the fucks

if i ate a good meal....think about the starving kids

if i had a stomache ache...gud tänk hur glada de svältande barnen i etiopien skulle vara om de bara hade lite ont i magen

if i had a good day, bad day, normal day....it didn't matter

my life was meant to be spent thinking about the starving fucks in ethiopia

the thing is....for one..how much time do they spend thinking about me?

i got my problems too

and for the andra....think about just how many of those kids would turn out to be assholes. maybe just maybe we saved the world from a new idi amin

damn....i really like the name idi

the starving kids in ethiopia...at least they had names

still going nuts

idi amin farber...maybe?

i am kind of old to be having a baby. maybe not ancient..men 52 is getting up there.

i forget alot....sometimes it feels as if i forget mer än i ever knew.

i really need to get in shape with both my mind, and my body. i want to be able to hold this kid...and remember her name and who the hell she is.

been being all these train your mind books.

keep forgetting where i put them.

today i bought a big ball and some weights. gonna start working out so i keep up my strength. would love it if i stopped looking like the pregnant one in the family. so i will this very eveing start a 25 minute excersize program with the ball and the weights.

if i just remember where i put them.

still nameless but a little calmer today

todays list of names include

aureli, dania, clea, and 2 more that i forget